Moving Right Along

War is over if you want it.

Such words. Such words. Can mean so many things. Right now I'm applying it to myself and the war I'm waging with this move. It's all in my head-- all this melancholy and bittersweet feelings. I need them to go away, come again another day.

Never let yourself settle and then move shortly after.

Orange ya glad I didn't say banana?

Wouldn't it be interesting if we always started jokes with the punchline? No, not really.

Still trying to be excited and optomistic, but boy is it easy to get pulled down. I woke up early this morning and couldn't get back to sleep. I laid there, while my mind churned, and I began to feel more and more miserable. It felt like the world was turning against me. The overanalysis I made of my conversations from the day before, all my emotions, everything--ran through my head at ludicris speed and just felt awful. I couldn't stop it. The feeling is not really something you can describe. Ultimately, when I finally decided to roll out of bed, it seemed to fall away, though I still feel it like a constant companion. I will name this empty companion Marvin.

Welcome Marvin. Thanks for tagging along on all my adventures.

Leaving

Sometimes it's time to let go
get out of the comfort quilt
push yourself
encourage yourself
plead with yourself
That it will be ok

Change is what life is
from diapers
to linens
to places to live
to friends
pushing myself
encouraging myself
pleading with myself
That it will be ok

The voice inside
gets louder
gets softer
loud again
changes tones
in different stages
but I continue

I tell my partner
get moving
get going
time is running out
and I push
and I encourage
and I plead
but I pray it will be ok.

Streaming radio

It's been a very long time since I've listened to internet radio. I tuned in to the Christmas Pop station on jango just for shiggles. It's more like the Michael Buble and repeats station. Ugh. Not the best way to get me in a Christmas mood! (I don't have anything against Michael Buble, but it's just too much.)

And what's up with the She and Him album? I like the actors, but they, in my very humble opinion, aren't the best singers. Though I did discover Straight No Chaser group's version of Twelve Days of Christmas. Loved it! They do a take on Toto's Africa and it really hits the mark. Of course, Toto's song is one of Sport-o and my "songs" so it holds a place close to my heart, but dispite that bias, I still enjoyed it.

There's my brief musical interlude entry for the day.