Change of Tune

Man, I just read my last blog entry. Depressing.

So I promise to have a better outlook in this entry. Though there are some things going on that aren't so great I'll try not to dwell on them. Matter of fact I won't dwell on them at all.

Happy Thanksgiving. I'm making dinner this year for 6 people. That's a big deal to me, though people may not think so. This is one of the first times I'm coming out from under my mother's so called "wing" and flying on my own. Wish me luck.

I think I collect strays. On Grey's Anatomy last week there was a reference to the Merideth character taking in "strays" aka her friends. It dawned on me...I'm like that. Sport-o is like that too. We're both in a way, strays, and collected each other. I've been thinking back to when I was a kid and who I was friends with and who I befriended (be it human or beast). I've always been attracted to that person or that group. Not that there was anything wrong with them, because they were in the same category as me. (Hee. hee.) I was never in the "in crowd" and always had a small amount of friends. I'm still like that. I am really close with my small circle of friends. I don't think that's a bad thing, but sometimes it can be hindering.
I think I'll go home and watch Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer. I'll be sure to chime in on the "We're a couple of misfits" song. :)

Frustration

Frustration

snapping at people for not letting me finish a sentence
almost throwing guitar hero guitar in front of friends
can't play nice CAN'T!
get wierd looks from people. "What's wrong with HER?"
turning beat red when anger throbs through veins. Runs
unable to control anymore
too tired
too tired of holding it in
chocolate candy corn is gross
job may be in jeapardy, again
husband is easy target of anger but unfair
whispers in hallways
what's going on
trying to ignore rumor mill but can't help it
paranoia sets in
holding it in
sick to stomach
got nails done- too long to function properly
can't be pretty- to hard to maintain
Hair just got done but "dead ends" pointed out that didn't exist
swallowed and held it in
no money
cat who doesn't shut up
worried about patient in hospital
nothing you can do
get on the plane get back to work
to hear bull shit
Holding it in all the time
All the time
probably aging because of holding it in all the time
all the time
grumble grumble STFU